Headbanging Legend

I don’t know why I feel this way. I feel selfish to have these feelings. Why can’t I control who I love and who I forget? No matter how hard I try, nothing stops me thinking about you and what you did. But why does it hurt me so much?

Me and you never were, and never will be. As much as it hurts for me to say so, you mean so much to me. But do I mean anything to you? I will never know. It doesn’t matter anyway. You’re better off without me.

I’m sorry to be like this, and I’m sorry to make you feel guilty. I wish I could see you and smile, loving you regardless of what you do. And I do love you regardless of what you do. If I didn’t then it wouldn’t make me so angry. But these memories will never go, these emotions will never hide. You have nothing to regret. But I have everything to regret.

This is nobody’s fault except mine. You did nothing wrong, you are only human. It’s my fault for becoming this way. My fault for letting myself feel this way and think that me and you could be something. It’s just me and my stupid hopes and dreams. But dreams don’t come true. You will never care for me in the way that I care for you.

If only it was so easy to accept.